WHAT IF?

It's been a long time since my eighteenth birthday, it's got water under the bridges, things have happened to it, and I never thought, until Friday, maybe there might be a chance if it's too remote, that if I had celebrated, like all my peers, like my "friends" at the time .. I did not think it was useless to celebrate in those days, it was only another year that passed .. what was really special I did not know , then I realized that my family's economic situation did not allow me to be able to claim anything of what, even though they wanted to give me what they could not possibly have, I decided that I would not celebrate, so I did until I was 25, when I decided that instead of celebrating a day that reminds me that I am one year older, for three days, I leave the city so nobody can say "happy birthday"I'm not one of those fixed with age, and my biological watch I've decided I'm in charge of it, but I hate those who use those phrases of circumstances that are often used to make you feel shit..The point is another, talking to my friend at work, but if I had celebrated my 18th birthday, as did most of my peers at the time, with a mega party, drinking alcohol and so on. would something have changed in me? Many say that this way of being introverted, and wanting to see the world at all costs, in a way that does not exist, is synonymous with something I do not have ... and if I am only one who sees the world with other shades than who follows the current?Do I feel unsuitable for this too? do I have to consider that if I lived my 18 years, how did almost all of them live (that is, in the same manner as flock mode) my life would be different? Well if I ran right down to the south, to celebrate as my peers and friends of the past, my parents would be indebted to my neck, I would not have been so attached to a city I belong now, maybe I would not be able to feel home here, and instead of trying to turn Italy and the world I would be left to go down from my friends, what would be the pros and cons? Surely, I would not find myself in friendship with those who inspire most of my work.
Really our life depends on the famous <and if ..> I really hope not ..

PERFECT WOMAN'S CURRICULUM.. .

a few days ago at work, she talked about the "perfect woman's curriculum" a friend of mine and colleague said that the woman must have an ad hoc curriculum in order to find her husband .. but what? are we kidding?

We are in 2017, we fight for women's rights, for gender equality.

I always thought that in a couple it is two, especially in a marriage in a coexistence, but I go on, and I think I did well to stay alone.

Going back to the curriculum this my friend said, the perfect woman must know how to iron, wash and cook, know how to do mom and look after her husband .. then turning to me asked <you what do you do?> At that moment I felt under a giant magnifying glass. If you are a woman capable of ironing and looking at the house you are sure that you will find a husband .. believe me I would have choked him, I did point out how much his speeches are sexist and masked, but trying to choke it was not worth it. I told him to do almost diplomatic what I want in life and find a man the opposite of him .. so it's offended.

the thing that most puzzles me is that people who think so are the same that they then look for other women, most of those men are distracted in women who have nothing to do with the "fireplace woman" then I wonder why? why do sexists talk and then do what? So what happens? Are women wrong in wanting to be the women in the hearth? or is it just masculine thinking to be wrong?

And then there may be more on the curriculum? kind of passions? or should a woman become servant and slave of her man without having more passions?

IF..

I talked about love so many times, about unmatched love, I talked about friendship .. how lucky I am to have found wonderful people, and how much I fear every day to lose those I love ..these days I have often, perhaps perhaps too much, to think back to what they could or maybe are the missed opportunities, I happened to rethink, to that I love you not to say, to that kiss not given, to that kiss denied .. and maybe even that possibility of a future other than what I'm trying to create with my hands .. I imagined myself in his place, I imagined myself, wife and mother .. and while all this frightened me before, now I wonder if I was wrong or what .. if waiting was the right thing .. if I had to go ahead one of those Saturday morning of 7 years ago ..then I go back to reality, I go back to the present and I realize that it is too late now that only an old blurred dream left ... that can not come back that that woman I could become will never exist and then never .. that I am the bipolar lunatic with an unprecedented love, with thousands of projects and dreams to be realized with a hope of a million tomorrow to realize my only true dream..

SKIN CARE : AT 20 AND 30 YEARS OLD WHICH ARE DIFFERENCE?

When I was 20, and I went back to work, tired and tired and tired, I took a towel, took off the big one and washed my face with soap and went to sleep .. easy? then the 30th is the magnificent 30 years old, that age where you are not too old to grow dawn .. but you are too old to go to bed without taking the make up, and without wiping your skin .. so I thought that in the last few years, in beauty products (non-cosmetic) I have spent hundreds of euros (and a few times in dollars and pounds) between facial cleansing products, wrinkles and skin patches .. and now with a minimum of experience (and thrown money) I can guarantee that the best products are few, so now I tell you what she uses like me, with shiny skin tones, the makeup mania thing to use to clean the face and cure the skin ..among the last tried, one of my favorites, one of the best is the skin and the tonic of L'oreal skin expert, rare flowers .. it cleanses the skin without leaving any residues .. after using the cleansing cream, I step the tonic , initially pinch and blush the skin, but after the effect is safe, always for facial cleansing I suggest the masks of the oreal that exfoliating to clay, that of black coal, and the green to the algae .. but also Garnier tonic and micellar water are perfect for a quick and accurate cleaning.

and as I said before, without any shame, I'm 31 years 4 months and 11 days, and for at least two years, those that seemed to everyone's say, just wrinkles of expression, are now real wrinkles .. you have your paws of hen? well I tell you I'm not a botox lover, and I confirm what the goddess Anna Magnani was saying .. I CAN NOT EXPRESS WITHOUT WORDS WITH A PLASTIC FACE .. but if the wrinkles are already visible ... let's go! It is true what the mothers say .. dressed up less than 40 years old you will have the skin of an old woman .. and considering that it is a necessity for me to makeup, so I found a compromise, not in the morning, no on free days (unless I do not have an important evening)but in any case you have to have a small helper, and here (compared to the cleansing creams) you spend a little more .. Collostar has created a very effective wrinkle cream, which costs about 30 €

but there are others, different costs, but still effective.. 

Well now sorry but I'm going to do my home-made spa session ..

xoxo